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I pride myself on serving healthy food for my son, and this week I made a wonderful plate of pasta with chicken and broccoli and a pinch of blue cheese.
My kids loved it – Rocky, 14, and Stryker, 10 – and I love it, too. But soon after that I went to the bathroom and forced myself to throw everything.
Not a big deal. Although it is not something that I do every day, it certainly isn’t unusual for me to make myself sick after a meal..
In fact, it has done it almost everywhere you can think of – from luxury hotels and restaurants to highway service stations and friends’ homes..
I got sick more times than I could count when I participated in Celebrity Big Brother in 2012 and 2017, and likewise in Celebrity Forest in 2008, even though we were barely eating enough to keep us going as well..
As a person with bulimia nearly all my life (I’m 39 now), it’s part of who I am, as much as I wish it wasn’t – and as I spent years of therapy trying to untangle the underlying causes. I haven’t really got to the bottom of why I’m doing this.
Bulimia is a complex condition that most people don’t understand – ask the average person who thinks it’s all about people trying to be thin.
But it’s about a lot more than that – a sign of low self-esteem, a need for control, and a coping mechanism.
It’s all of this and more – no wonder problems like this have escalated during the lockdown challenges.
The eating disorder charity Beat reports a 50 percent rise in demand for its services from people who struggle during lockdown.
The Priory Group, one of the largest private clinics for eating disorders, reported a 71 percent increase in admissions in September compared to the same period last year, and said inquiries had tripled since April..
It’s one of the reasons I was so happy when I learned that Princess Diana’s struggle with bulimia is portrayed on screen in the latest series of The Crown – all the way to the producers who show the late Queen is making herself sick..
I know some people have expressed disagreement, but I think Diana will be 100 percent behind the decision..
She was one of the first people to talk openly about her having the condition, which began just a week after her engagement to Prince Charles..
In her controversial interview with Panorama, she told journalist Martin Bashir that this was a symptom of her declining sense of self-worth.. . She said, « You catch it on yourself because your self-esteem is declining, and you don’t think you are worthy or worthy. ».
“Fills your stomach four or five times a day – some do it more – and gives you that feeling of relief.. Then you feel disgusted with your bloated stomach, and you put it back again.
She would know, more than anyone else, how powerful it really is to highlight what it’s like.
Because unlike anorexia, where people begin to shrink before your eyes, bulimia isn’t always visible – Diana herself called it « the secret disease ».
Bulimia nervosa, often shortened to bulimia only, is a mental health condition and eating disorder that affects an estimated 165,000 Brits.
People with bulimia often become obsessed with controlling their weight and severely restricting their food intake.
People who struggle to overeat and then eliminate food from the body with laxatives or make themselves sick.
People with bulimia tend to get agitated and eaten, with a very critical attitude towards their weight and size..
After eating, sufferers may spend long periods in the shower and return to a flushed appearance with scars in their joints – the result of pushing their fingers down the throat.
As with all eating disorders, women are more likely to be affected than men, and women between the ages of 16 and 40 are more likely to develop bulimia..
You could be overweight and have bulimia or you could look like me – stylish and healthy size 8. It’s not the kind of problem you can diagnose just by looking at someone.
As Diana knows, it affects people from all walks of life, and of all shapes and sizes. And the numbers open the eye.
More than 1. It is estimated that 6 million people in the UK are directly affected by eating disorders and recent studies indicate that eight per cent of women suffer from bulimia at some point in their life.. .
The condition can occur at any age, but it mainly affects women between the ages of 16 and 40. In my case, I have suffered from an eating disorder since I was little.
I always feel more loved when I’m sick, and my narrative of illness is starving myself or making me sick.
My first memories of having problematic thoughts about food go back to 11 years, although they may have started earlier..
I remember lying in the bathroom and saying to myself, « Let’s see how long you can go without eating. ». I still don’t know why I wanted it, but I remember loving the attention I got as I got younger.
It’s the same thing today – I always feel more loved when I’m sick, and my narrative of illness is starving myself or getting sick.
A healthy, happy Nicola isn’t asked if she’s okay, but skinny Nicola often does.. Even writing this I know it sounds crazy, yet I really can’t cancel his choice despite all this treatment.
Over time, control of food intake went hand in hand with bulimia. I can’t remember the first time I got sick, but I was still in school when I learned that I could do it without getting my fingers in my throat – I could do it right from my stomach.
Basically, bulimia has become a part of my life. Unlike anorexia, it is a compulsion – a bit like cutting yourself, although when you do you can see scars..
Bulimia does not suffer from it, unless you account for the way that over the years has eroded all of my tooth enamel so that it is now all veneered..
You were definitely good at hiding it from people. I met my husband, professional footballer Tom Williams, 16 years ago and for a long time he had no idea that I was regularly feeling sick after the wonderful dinner he took me to when we were dating – and even after we got married..
Over time, he was more concerned about my anorexia, which I also struggled with over the course of our years together.
Things got worse after the birth of our second striker son. By the time Stryker was a year old, I weighed less than 6 and was so thin that I was wearing leggings made for eight-year-olds.. If he had continued, I wouldn’t be here.
Tom had to sit with me and explain to me that what I was doing was putting my life and my children in danger. Of all mental illnesses, eating disorders have the highest mortality rates.
It took a long time but with a lot of support from my family I was able to beat my anorexia, even though I know how easy it is to relapse.
The Beat Foundation, a UK eating disorder charity, helped advise producers on how to depict mental illness sensitively on screen.. This is what they said. . .
“We were consulted by Netflix and Left Bank Pictures during the production of the fourth season of The Crown,” said Rebecca Wilgers, head of communications..
« We did not participate in the filming location, but did advise us on how to photograph eating disorders with sensitivity, including tagging appropriate sources of help and providing stimulating warnings when needed..
“Eating disorders are often misunderstood as mental illnesses and thrive in secrecy. We believe that accurate and subtle portrayal of eating disorders in the media can be a useful way to educate the public more broadly about their reality, as well as encourage anyone affected to seek help..
“As with all imaging of eating disorders, care must be taken and we will not recommend this or any other program focused on eating disorders to anyone who is currently ill to watch this program..
« If a sick person chooses to watch it, we strongly recommend having a support network or help source such as Beat for your reference if needed..
I haven’t had a set of scales in my home for eight years now, and in my NHS notes it says I will never be weighed – if I were, I’d be half my current weight in a matter of months. I never feel good about myself.
But bulimia is different. Whenever I feel stressed out or out of control this is what I’m back at, which is why it got really bad at the start of the lockdown earlier this year.
I don’t take very well with change, and pictures of people buying supermarket panic really scared me. I organize my purchases and diet very carefully and put me in a tailspin.
Making myself sick was my way of trying to reassert control over something I had no control over at all. It releases something inside of me that makes me feel good, at least for a while.
On a bad day – and there were too many locked up – eating and vomiting is all I can think of.
It doesn’t help that unlike other addictions, you can’t isolate yourself from the source of your problems.
If I’m an alcoholic or a drug addict, I can take steps to avoid having them in my life, but you can’t get away from food – it’s all around you. This means that I face my demons every day.
The only thing that helps is medication, which is a form of Prozac that has been prescribed and discontinued over the years to help stop the compulsive urge..
It definitely works, but it comes with horrific side effects that make me sweat and feel numb on the inside. I hate it, so I would rather manage without it.
But that means my bulimia is always present, and it’s an infernal thing that I know is very difficult for people who love me to accept, especially Tom.
But the truth is part of my identity now and I don’t think it will ever go away. I just hope that by watching The Crown, people will understand a little bit more.
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